Heidi Ho's birthday

We had the best time celebrating Heidi's birthday. Mom cooked a wonderful steak dinner.
 
Nic and I haven't seen Aideyn & Lucy in a month so we soaked up EVERY minute. Lucy has so much personality and just giggles and giggles. Aideyn started football 2 weeks ago so that is all he and Nic talked about. Nic brought a bag full of football stuff and they "dressed out" and played football outside @ moms.
 
The week after Heidi had Lucy, Rob had to go to Ohio for 6 weeks so Nic and I went to Vburg every chance we could. I wake up super early and since my body was used to that, I would wake up to do the 3am feeding and then just hold her in my arms all night staring at her until everyone got up the next morning. LOVE this little blessing. 
 
Although I love seeing how much she changes and trying to determine who she is going to look like, it makes me sad that she can feed herself now. Slow down, Lucy girl!
 
 
Lucy LOVES Trudy





 


 
 
Happy Birthday Heidi Ho!!
 
May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20:4
 
 

We are home πŸ™Œ

I woke up Tuesday feeling so good that Nic and I went for coffee (haven't been able to have this in WEEKS...such a a treat!!) and a short walk. Since I had anesthesia, they were pretty specific on my do's and don'ts so we didn't push it.
My "home" for the last 19 days 

We had lunch in Denver at a cool little BBQ place, Roamin Buffalo



We visited the Blue Moon Brewery and ended the day @ the Rockies vs Red Sox game πŸ™Œ





Our favorite was the "Iced Coffee Blonde" (far left)
 




We cheered for the Rockies since they were the home team but every time our MSU boy, Mitch Moreland was up to bat or made a good play, we yelled for him too!!
 
 
Leaving Denver Wednesday was certainly bittersweet. Colorado grew to feel like home.
 
I missed home, my routine, my coworkers, my pups and all the other "normal" stuff that I never thought I would miss. But I am SO thankful for the opportunity of a lifetime that I had and I'm already ready to return !!!
 
 
 
Thankful for HIS faithfulness and strength at work in my life today. I choose to consider HIS ability over MY circumstance. I will trust and give praise and honor!
 
2 more days of waiting ….. please keep us in your prayers!!


National Dog Day 🐢🐢

It has been nearly 3 weeks since I've seen these sweet pups and I miss them terribly. Thankful for the elderly lady that let us adopt Mae from her. She was just what we needed. Mae has been so good for Remi and her little energy makes life fun for Nic and I too.
 
Mae turns 4 September 25th and Remi turns 11 September 27th
 
Happy National Dog Day to our favorite little fur balls!
 
















 
Can't wait to pick these pups up on Friday.

Great are you LORD

I woke up at 5:45 this morning starving. I think its something about knowing I couldn't eat that makes me wake up so anxious and hungry?! Good news is..... I lived and was able to eat crackers and have ginger ale in post op.

I couldn't wait to blog today about how great everything was. Our entire experience today was so wonderful. The pre-op nurse, Amy, was so informative with us and explained how the entire procedure was going to go. She gave us details about who all would come in and meet with me (doctor performing retrieval surgery, OR nurse and anesthesiologist) Everyone came by, as promised, and each explained everything to us again and asked what questions we had. I know this seems basic but I have never been given this type of treatment. I felt like I was the only one in the OR today and I wasn't. I was actually the 6th surgery they had and there was 2 more after me. CCRM has it going on....that's all I can say about that. Their staff is the best of the best.

When we pulled up this morning, we had special parking. We parked in an underground parking garage that we had to be buzzed into. Pretty cool concept because when surgery is over and they roll you out, they roll you straight to your car (and there is nobody out there staring!)

Before the OR nurse rolled me back, Nic and I prayed together and specifically prayed that they would retrieve more eggs than our last IVF cycle. Selfishly we just want as many as my body can make because as we've experienced before, after fertilization, we could end up with less than 1/2 or 1/4 of them left.  Although they do ultrasounds each day and see the follicles, there isn't always an egg in each follicle so they have to guestimate how many they think you'll have. They guesstimated 12 this morning and then I had FIFTEEN (15)  retrieved. Giving HIM all the glory. This is 1 more than we had last year and its 3 more than they expected. 15 is a wonderful # and we are so grateful and still a little giddy.

Fuzzy socks are a must. This is a pair a coworker gave me last year and I like to think they are my good luck charm.

My sweet Nic cheering me on before and after the procedure. No makeup, no moisturizer, no lotions, no perfumes, no jewelry and no food and I'm still smiling. I am so fortunate, without a doubt.


After surgery, they tell you to drink plenty of fluids and eat salty food. The follicles (where the eggs were removed) fill with fluid and you can overstimulate (ovaries get super huge and full of fluid) so eating salty foods and staying hydrated helps. I follow orders well and since I'm so happy to eat and drink again...I AM ON IT!

Post op went well and I was released by 1:00.

Although this trip/journey has changed a little and we had a few hurdles/setbacks, I am thankful. The detours redirected me to something better. Thankful that my plan wasn't HIS plan. If I had my way, I would have had my cycle on 9/9 (like we had expected) and started my stim shots 2 days later. Instead, it was 5 days late and my body had 5 extra days to get ready. I had 5 extra days to spend with my momma and although neither of us knew at time how important that time together was going to be, God knew we both needed it.  We made some of the best memories and had so much fun even during such a frustrating and "unknown time" for me.

Thankful the Lord forced me to let go of the things I wanted most because now I know they were wrong for me. I deserved more. He was teaching me how to be patient because he had better things coming by way. Always, always thankful for his grace, strength and courage.

This journey has never been mine entirely to take and I do not know what is best for me but HE has every detail all planned out.

We will receive a call tomorrow from the embryologist letting us know how many of the 15 eggs fertilized and grew. Then we will get a call next Sunday letting us know how many made it to blastocyst and are ready for testing. We elected to test all of our embryos (this was recommended since our miscarriage showed that Baby Meeks had trisomy 13 (extra chromosome/abnormal embryo ). They will start the testing next Sunday and it will be a 2 week wait. Nobody likes to wait and although I've been working on patience and trusting in HIM, this is a struggle for me.

Isaiah 40:31   but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.

You give life, You are love
You bring light to the darkness
You give hope, You restore
Every heart that is broken
Great are You, Lord
 
It's Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise
We pour out our praise
It's Your breath in our lungs
So we pour out our praise to You only
 
XOXO

I raise a hallelujah, with everything inside of me

We had an 8:00 doctor apt this morning

and then tried out a new church, Cherry Hill Community Church in Highlands Ranch . A friend of mine told me about this church so we had to give it a visit and we are SO glad we did! They had wonderful worship music to start our day! 

From the time we walked in, we were greeted immediately and given a tour. (The church was quite  big and overwhelming!) All the blinds/window coverings started to roll down and then worship music started. They started with one of my favorites "Raise a hallelujah" ... and it just got better from here!


I had to take my trigger shots last night @ 12:15am and another @ 1:15 am. Nic and I went to dinner and a movie (Angel has Fallen, his choice) and came in planning to nap then wake up and do shots but I was too anxious and scared to go to sleep bc I feared we would sleep through the alarms! So we stayed up until the last shot was over then we crashed! 

Several nights this past week, we haven't been @ the hotel for my 7:00 shot so I've been doing it in the car. I feel like such a druggy bc I have to sneak to the vehicle and give myself a shot in the stomach. It's really not that bad except lifting my shirt and pinching an inch of fat. That's certainly one thing I am doing right.... if you have fat to give the shot in, it's not as painful;) 

I rarely go to movies with Nic but this one had recliners πŸ’•


Today has been a wonderful, relaxing day. We had 1 more shot (my LAST one!!) to take @ 1:15pm so we did that and then watched movies in the hotel for 4 hours! I think one of the reasons I have felt so good since being out here is that I'm getting LOTS of sleep. 

We just went for a evening walk. I took Nic to see some of the new construction homes around the area we are staying in. These houses go for 1.5-3 million and it just blows my mind! We walked in a few so nic could check them out






 
We just ate a later dinner because I can't have anything to eat/drink after midnight tonight. Hope to sleep late in the morning so its less time for me to think about eating before 11:15 procedure.
 
 
XOXO